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I am sorry
that I didn't meet you sooner,
didn't have a chance
to discover your glorious heart
at a time and place
where you were more free
to love,
couldn't turn back time
and insert myself
at a former day where you needed me,
but we both know
this couldn't have happened
at any other time,
that our united fate
has brought us here,
now.

I am sorry
that I fell for you the moment
I looked into your eyes
and saw the future
blooming like brilliant fireworks
in a midnight sky,
and wanted to reach it,
and wanted
to reach you,
but hesitated and speculated
and waited
to tell you for so long.

I am sorry
that every pair of headlights
passing in the night
make me wish it were you
coming to me,
that I fantasize
about the way your arms
feel around me,
that I dream
about your shape beside mine
and your love
enveloping my everything --
the way that it already has.

I am sorry
that I think about us
all lips and hands,
hips and eyes and dark spaces,
tender places
where we blur together
like mist in the morning,
a million different pieces
coming together
to form a single soul,
an eternal union.

I am sorry
that these words are not beautiful
the way that you are,
that I have never found a way
to tell you,
to show you how I feel
that lives up
to even the slightest percentage
of the totality of my adoration,
the complexity
of the billion thoughts
and feelings and desires
that I possess for you.

I am sorry
that I love you beyond description,
that I long for you
in ways beyond the grasp
of language, of motion,
that my passion for you
defies logic and reason
the way the stars
will burn away
long before their light goes out,
long before my love recoils.

I am sorry
that I haven't found a way for you to see,
that I have somehow failed
to make it clear,
to express myself in a way
that makes you feel alive
with eyes wide open
rather than
wondering if I will stop,
if my love
can last the test of time,
if my love
can prove that you are worthy
of something so special --
You are,
and I am not going anywhere.

I am sorry
that I have managed to complicate it,
to entangle your thoughts,
to fog over your mind
and that my love
may twist you up like kite strings,
but I cannot deny
and do not desire to suppress
that limitlessness of my devotion.

I am sorry
that I am not the everything I wish to be,
that I am lacking
whatever perfect chemical,
whatever brilliant combination
could make me
enough to change your world,
to set you free
and show you the power
of the deep, boiling love
that permeates my every inch
when I think of you --
but I'll keep trying.

I am sorry
that you've been through a hell
I cannot comprehend,
that you have seen things,
felt things,
discovered things I cannot imagine,
and that I can't wipe it clean,
erase the pain
and replace it all
with the beauty, with the care,
with the love
that you so rightfully deserve.

I am sorry
that it scares you
to know how real it all is,
to hope to dream
that what I profess is true,
that my intentions are just
and my love
is beyond comprehension
and that you know
that you are in love with me
in a way you never,
ever imagined you could be,
but cannot deny
that you are.

Now -- I want you
to let it all sink in,
take a moment and consider it all,
everything
from the first moment of your life,
to the last letter
of this confession,
close your eyes
and take a breath
and tell me if you see me
in that dark space
behind your lids,
if you feel my hands
on your skin,
if you hear my words
in your ear,
if you wish for my headlights,
if you dream
of my lips and hands,
if you ache
to stretch every second together
out for hours,
for weeks and months...
if you fantasize
about the two of us
the way that I do.

Mostly,
I am sorry
that I am not sorry at all
that I met you,
that I have fallen in love with you,
that I dream about you
and want to show you everything.
No,
I am not sorry
that my love is true,
that I have stirred your soul
and awakened
this living, breathing, beating,
aching need
within your very skin
and
that I will continue, everyday
to tell you
in every way possible
that you are amazing
and that I am
drawn, inexorably,
to your radiance
until the day comes
that you are sorry
that it took you so very long
to recognize
that some things
are meant to be.
Tell me what you feel... because I know it's there, and so do you.

I did cut a verse out of this, mostly because I'd rather say it to you in person... if you want to hear it.
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:iconlegendaryjd:
LegendaryJD Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Another great piece.
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Silver-and-Rubies Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow! Sums up my feelings for LiLithe exactly!!


I love it!

Very well written!
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:icondreamsinstatic:
dreamsinstatic Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013
Thank you.
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:iconsilver-and-rubies:
Silver-and-Rubies Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're very welcome.
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SylverFire-Lilithe Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow.......... I'm crying...... These are the exact feelings I feel for mine beloved.......
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:icondreamsinstatic:
dreamsinstatic Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013
I'm glad it speaks to you.
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SylverFire-Lilithe Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
ThanQ!

It's beautiful!!


I sent it to my fiancé!! ^,..,^
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dreamsinstatic Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2013
:D
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:iconsylverfire-lilithe:
SylverFire-Lilithe Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
^,..,^
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Cygam-7 Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013   Traditional Artist
Good god man, you write the most profound professions of love. I really enjoy reading your daily admonitions to your damsel. They're beautiful.
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