Where are you?
Journal Entry: Sun May 4, 2008, 5:25 PM
Sometimes, on a weekend afternoon, I find myself walking out onto the deck and staring into the horizon. Watching the sun slink ever closer to the mountain tops spreading this beautiful golden light across the sky, bouncing off the clouds. It is in these moments that I start to feel my most lonely. Not so much a loneliness that overwhelms, but when you're sitting there, looking at something this beautiful you want to share it with someone. I find myself wondering how long it will be until someone is at my side, someone who will treasure things like this the way that I do.
There is one person in particular on my mind when it comes to that, however, I'm far too realistic to allow myself to be carried any further along this pipe dream without something more to solidify that belief. I wanted to share it with you, but I can't unless you want it too. All signs say that you don't, and that's ok. Its something I will learn to accept. Its just difficult when you realize all those possibilities, all those chances at something wonderful are just slipping through your fingertips. I learned a long time ago you can't make people want something if they don't already want it, and thats reality.
I think of the past, those who have shared that view with me, those I wanted to share it with. I don't know what has happened to me in the past few years. Relationships bound to failure, happiness almost an impossibility. Granted, I am happy in myself, just cannot seem to find a balance with another. I used to wonder if maybe I were one of those who was just meant to be alone, and perhaps thats an excessively emo statement, and yes it probably is but sometimes you can't help but feel that way. Maybe one day it will make sense, until then I've got this view, this blue sky and golden sun, these clouds and gentle winds. They'll be here for me, until she comes. Whomever she may be.
- Listening to: "Don't leave home" - Dido
- Eating: Brownies
- Drinking: Gatorade
Devious Comments
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&when the waves crashed,
and the cities fell apart...
i thought you'd be next to me,
holding my heart.
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Bixx Katt the panther
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
muchos appreciated
<3
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&when the waves crashed,
and the cities fell apart...
i thought you'd be next to me,
holding my heart.
--
Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
you are a great writer! keep up the good work .
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
K x
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
much appreciated
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I am a Pretty boy...
"What's it going to be then, Eh?"
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Repent, The End Is Fucking Nigh
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
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jessielynn
I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there -Perks of Being a Wallflower
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we all turn to dust on heavens command-front line assembly
so is urss!
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&when the waves crashed,
and the cities fell apart...
i thought you'd be next to me,
holding my heart.
--
Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
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&when the waves crashed,
and the cities fell apart...
i thought you'd be next to me,
holding my heart.
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"I'm the girl who's done with you. Lemme know when you're ready to be normal again" - PostSecret Community
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
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Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night."
-Charlie Brown
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