So. It's been a while. A lot of new, exciting things. A few old, haunting things. So, I'll do my best to catch you up on everything as succinctly as possible.
I bought a house. I closed on it in June, making me a first time homeowner. This is both thoroughly exciting and mildly frightening. On the plus side, I get to put up whatever weird decorations I want that appeal to my eclectic personality. I post a lot of pictures on my instagram and snapchat, so feel free to add me on those (or even if you just want to chat.) Instagram: KillingPoetry snapchat: poeticweapon Hey, do any of you play Xbox One? You should add me on there too: KillingPoetry
I finally got my Associates degree in May. It took me forever, but working full time and going to school simultaneously can be challenging. In my final semester I participated in a creative writing class which, if nothing else, reminded me how much I absolutely love to be surrounded by other writers. I need this more in my life. Any writers in the Western North Carolina, Asheville NC area? Hit me up. I think writing is a lot more rewarding when you're helping others and being helped yourself. That being said, even if you don't live nearby, you can always drop me a note and we can talk about writing. Although I've been writing for the better part of twenty-five years, it's only within the past few years that I've come to learn just how much I truly love it and how passionate I am about it. It's one of the few things that makes me want to wake up in the morning.
It's been a year since I lost my final grandparent to cancer. Although a year has passed, those wounds are still fresh and, interestingly enough, it has reinvigorated both my bane for religion as well as my own desire to find my place in the universe. As a result I've been looking into a lot of religions, spiritualities and etc. The most recent interest is Druidism. Don't get me wrong, I am by no means subscribing to anything, but I do find it fascinating to look into the beliefs of ancient and modern spiritual and religious constructs. Ultimately I think the answer to the universe is one of two possibilities: Everything is insignificant and meaningless and we are just small specks in a greater universe that could care less or there is some source of power and intelligence out there that no one, nor no religion, has managed to put its finger on.
I've been writing, as I'm sure you've noticed. I've had a bit of a back and forth battle with it for a while now. I think in some way I've been choosing to punish myself by depriving myself of something I truly love. What am I punishing myself for? That's a complicated answer that I won't go into here, but you can always ask if you're truly interested. As a result of doing writing lately, I'm working to find my groove again and to continue my evolution. I love deviantart and I've been here a long time, but sometimes I find it can hurt my work or at least the way I approach it. That being said, I'm working harder to write what I feel and think, to experiment and try new things and to not allow myself to feel compelled to stay inside the box that may or may have been forged for me here and elsewhere. One of the most important things is to allow myself to express what is inside of me, and sometimes that is frightening, but I think honesty is the only way to great work.
So what about you guys? What's new, what's going on? I miss you. I'd love to hear from you. Don't hesitate to hit me up. Those of you I've been chatting with on snapchat and instagram, you're awesome and I appreciate the fun you bring into my life. So, write to me. Write for me. Write with me. Let's dive in.